As new UU Wellspring year approaches, my heart contains an odd mash-up of excitement and guilt. I am feeling excited to reconnect with my beloved first-year Wellspring group, as we move on to explore the Spiritual Practice curriculum together for the next 10 months; I am feeling guilty about my utter failure to live into one of the five spokes of the Wellspring program – commitment to a daily spiritual practice.
There you have it: an admission of my “wholeness” — and in public, no less! Parker Palmer would be proud.
I tried. I really did. I kept a gratitude journal for quite awhile, and that was, well, gratifying. But then it seemed to run its course. I tried meditation, but controlling the fierceness of the thoughts generated by my over-active mind proved to be too much for my own internal lion-tamer.